I will always be "me"....

The rules of the world,
Are but so strange,
I love myself,
Yet I am forced to change,
Yes, I am a new person now,
For the world to see,
But deep down inside,
I will always be "me"!!!

The miner....

The miner digs,
Nice and slow,
Dust and sweat mingle to form,
Droplets on his brow,
He traverses,
Underground tunnels and caves,
Through day and night,
He only slaves,
Darkness engulfs him,
There's no light,
His destination, for sure,
Is out of sight,
His crude hands blacken,
As he digs through the coal,
But all he cares of,
Is to reach his goal,
He is strong and determined,
And continues to mine,
Till finally in his path,
Precious diamonds shine,
From the humble miner, we have,
Lots of lessons to learn,
Work hard, don't give up,
And success will come to you in return!!!

The Two Princes....

My attempt to write a ballad...

Two princes born to the same king,
One evil, the other good,
Two different buds of the same plant,
The irony, never understood!

They both grew with time,
In thoughts and in actions too,
One became wicked and cruel,
The other, righteous and true.

As time passed by, days and years,
The king of the land grew old,
He wondered, “which one should be crowned?,
The king’s position, which one should hold?”

The evil one already knew,
That the natural choice was the other,
But the devil inside him rose,
Wanting to get rid of his brother.

He poisoned his brother’s food,
With the deadliest poison known,
“I always win”, he said to himself,
And rejoiced all alone.

That night fate played a game,
And the royal maid fell ill,
Her daughter accidently exchanged,
The plate intended to kill.

In his chamber alone,
The evil prince choked, went out of breath,
The poison supposed to put an end to his brother,
Was taking him closer to his own death!

Inside him a voice spoke,
It bellowed loud and clear,
“As you sow, so shall you reap”,
“What you do will come back to you, dear!”

The evil prince perished,
He had paid for his sins,
Its true, what they say,
Over evil, good always wins!

Break Up.....

"It's over", you said with no emotion,
And walked away with the other girl,
Those words slashed my heart like a knife,
And the bleeding was uncontrollable.....

I still remember your false promise,
That your love for me would never change,
You broke your promise, and shattered my dreams,
Left me feeling lonely, shocked and strange.....

I gave up everything for you,
My dreams and my desires,
And you gave me only pain in return,
You set my emotions to fire.....

Am still roaming about,
Trying to collect the ashes,
Still trying to heal my heart,
Full of bruises and scratches.....

This break up has broken me,
Shattered me to a million pieces,
And though I try to act strong,
Deep down, the pain never ceases!!!!

Attacked Innocence....

Two young innocent eyes,
With a tear dropping down from each one,
Stands the victim of a dirty man's lust,
Who used her just for his fun...

Thoughts haunt her mind,
Her innocence corrupted by his greed,
She knows the world out there is unkind,
Where contempt is sure to breed...

Helplessness engulfs her,
And the painful memories just don't seem to fade,
But all she can do is curse her culprit,
Who exposed her to life's grey shade!

"Will I ever get justice?",
Is the question that runs through her mind,
Is this really the world of God,
Where devils are all that she can find!

I can read her mind,
And she speaks through my words,
Both of us demand a change,
From those who have erred!

We hope no girl child goes through the same,
The trauma that she had to bear,
May this stimulate the warrior in each of you,
So that you stand up to fight, protect and care!

LET US STRIVE TO STOP CHILD ABUSE... AND CARE FOR THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN THROUGH IT... LETS BRING A CHANGE...

Addicted...

Addicted to your eyes,
Addicted to your smile,
Addicted to you,
I am all the while.....

You injected the venom of love,
Deep into my vein,
And just can't tell you now,
How sweet is the pain.....

This drug of your love,
Has given me such a high,
That I crave for it more and more,
As each day passes by.....

Take away my body,
Take away my soul too,
I would rather die,
Than live without you!!!!

Mother India Speaks.....

So easily destroyed,
So difficult to build,
So many of my brave sons,
Mercilessly killed,
Enough of destruction,
I crave for peace,
I, Mother India, pray now,
For violence to cease!!!

Dear terrorist brother.....

You may have a different religion,
You may have a different name,
But dear terrorist brother, just pierce me and see,
Our blood is just the same,
For what are you taking revenge on me?,
When and how did I become your enemy?,
Who's put that blindfold on you, dear brother,
That right and wrong, you can't see?

Dear terrorist brother, don't you feel,
That it is but a little odd,
That you are out to destroy,
what's been,Created by your own God?,
We were born and we shall mingle,
Into the same dust,
Then why is it dear brother,
That for my blood you lust?

We eat the same food,
We breathe the same air,
We drink the same water,
And the same sunlight we share,
But still you claim that we are different,
And hate me for it too,
Just think hard and tell me now,
What bad have I done to you?

I don't know who's Ram and Allah,
But the same God created me and you,
How I wish He had taught us,
To love and respect each other too,
Dear terrorist brother now stop right there,
This excruciating pain I can no more bear,
Just try to change yourself now,
For its never too late to learn to love and care!!!

The inner voice.....

Someone speaks from inside me,
This voice eggs me on to live,
My inner voice is pure,
It teaches me to forget and forgive,
This voice leads me on,
When life gets out of control,
And gives me strength and confidence,
To fight and reach my goal,
And when life turns unfair,
And everything seems untrue,
When today pains me,
And of tomorrow I have no clue,
This inner voice of mine,
Speaks out loud and clear,
Motivates me to keep going,
And God seems to be near,
Hope I am never separated,
From this inner soul of mine,
May it always stay protected,
In my tiny heart's confines!!!!

तेरे प्यार में.....

My attempt to write in hindi.....

तेरे प्यार में.....
जस्बात जुबां पर आए कई बार,
सुनाना चाहा तुझे दिल का हाल,
पर कह भी ना सके और चुप रह भी ना पाए।

तेरे प्यार में.....
रुके तेरे चौखट पर कदम कई बार,
तेरे साथ कुछ पल बिताने का आया खयाल,
पर रुक भी ना सके और चल भी ना पाए।

तेरे प्यार में.....
आंखों में आंसू आए कई बार,
तुझसे दूरी के गम ने किया बेकरार,
पर रो भी ना सके और हस भी ना पाए।

तेरे प्यार में.....
टूटा ये दिल कई कई बार,
तेरे प्यार में, ज़िन्दगी से गए हार,
पर मर भी ना सके और जी भी ना पाए।

Through the darkness.....

The sun used to shine,
My world was so bright,
Till I entered this tunnel,
Where there's no light....

I struggle to breathe,
The air's so still,
It's pitch dark in here,
And silence that can kill....

The surroundings are unfamiliar,
With not a soul to trust,
Fears fill up my heart now and then,
It's just waiting to burst....

Tears trickle down my face,
As I crave for a friend,
The sadness just keeps expanding,
It seems that there's no end....

But I fight through with hope,
And keep trying to find my way,
For there's surely light at the other end,
As they all say....

One day I'll reach,
To where I truly belong,
Where the music of life will play,
And my heart shall hum a song....

The sun will again shine,
And put an end to my pain,
The darkness will vanish,
And I'll smile again!!!!!

I wish.....

I wish I could go back there,
Where I threw my worries in the air,
Those lovely years of childhood,
Where I never had to worry and care....

I wish I could go back there,
To play amidst the bushes and trees,
With all my lovely friends,
And enjoy the soothing breeze….

I wish I could go back there,
To go to school with all my friends,
School is such a lovely place,
Where fun and frolic never ends…

I wish I could go back there,
Where affection and innocence rules,
Away from so- called adults,
Who are but mature fools…

I wish I could go back there,
Away from all worries and strife,
For my childhood days were definitely,
The best days of my life!!!

Can you see my pain?....

Can you see my pain?
When I am feeling low,
When my face loses its glow,
When my tears wet the pillow…

Can you see my pain?,
When I feel lost in the crowd,
When I fail to make you proud,
When I can’t cry out aloud….

Can you see my pain?,
When I crave for your attention,
When I have loads of tension,
When my feelings I can’t mention…

Can you see my pain?,
When I feel lonely and sad,
When a bad day I’ve had,
When life is driving me mad…

Can you see my pain,
When I want your love and care,
When I feel no one’s there,
When life seems unfair…

No, you can’t see my pain,
For I have learnt to hide,
My pain, the tears I’ve cried,
My feelings, my emotions, have died!!!!

The flag on the hill....

The storm is raging,
Dark is the sky,
The flag flutters alone on the hill,
Struggling to stay up high,
Life seems to me like this flag,
It takes you to a certain height,
And to stay high up there,
You have to put up a big fight,
All your life you strive,
To go up there,
And then the burden of victory,
Seems difficult to bear,
With success comes responsibility,
Both go hand in hand,
And you've to learn to stand tall,
Wherever you may land,
You have to face all struggle,
And bear all pain and ill,
If you wish to survive,
Like the flag on the hill!!!!

The Warrior....

He was born as a simple boy,
Fun loving and naughty at heart,
The apple of everyone’s eye,
Loved and adored from the very start…

He had a lovely childhood,
With friends and family who held him dear,
With each moment filled with joy,
And each day filled with cheer…

But little did he know,
That the devil was standing close,
And as he slept peacefully one day,
The mighty devil rose…

The devil cast his ugly shadow,
And the poor fellow fell ill,
With a disease which disabled him,
And could be cured by neither tonic nor pill…

Everyone around him was in tears,
And his family was distraught,
But weak and wounded though,
This mighty warrior fought…

And though he was in pain,
Never once did he complain,
His face always had a charming smile,
Be it sun or rain….

He worked hard to gain knowledge,
And got excellence in whatever he sought,
He was a man of great will,
This warrior recklessly fought….

And finally one day,
He could fight no more,
The devil of death had reached his house,
And knocked continuously on his door…

The warrior succumbed to death,
This burden he could no longer heave,
He left with a smile,
Leaving everyone else to grieve…

His life is an example to us,
With lots of lessons to give,
And though his body has left us,
His spirit will forever live…!!!!!

This poem is a tribute to my friend's brother who expired two days ago... he was suffering from an autoimmune disease which caused muscle dystrophy and weakness... he was on the wheelchair for 6 years and bed ridden for a year... he was just 21 when he died... though i never met him i really admire his courage and spirit... may his soul rest in peace...

An Indian speaks....

I live on the edge,
And as I leave home each day,
I just can't predict,
Whether I'll be back in the same way,
Explosions await me,
In each and every lane,
I see people dying around,
People in so much pain,
A tiny bomb explodes,
And takes so many lives away,
Is this really the world of God,
This world where I stay?,
Of having a peaceful life,
I really can never be sure,
This cancer, cancer of hatred,
Does it have any cure?,
Yes, I am a poor Indian,
Troubled, and in a bad shape,
And I just want to know,
Will I ever be safe???!!!

Lets pray for all those who have suffered in the bomb blasts today... lets try and find an answer to these questions... !!

I love you....

Come hold my hand,
gaze into my eyes,
Lets go for a walk,
under the starry skies,
Lets watch out of the window through the bars,
Look at the rustling leaves, count endless stars,
Lets dance on a tune, going on and on,
Lets be madly in love, till both of us are gone,
Lets run in the green meadows with a herd of sheep,
Let our love be divine, pure and like the ocean, deep,
Since the day you have knocked on my heart's door,
I love you my love, more and even more!!!!

Lets make peace...

Why do people quarrel,
Why do people fight,
Why can't they ever understand,
That two wrongs don't make a right...

Why can't they accept with happiness,
Whatever they have to do,
Why can't they take their defeat,
Their ego why can't they break through?

Why do people despise others,
And make their own selves sad,
When it's so easy to be good,
Why do they want to be bad?

Why do people refrain,
From extending a helping hand,
Why do they feel they are great,
When they are mere grains of sand?

Why do we hurt others,
And break their fragile hearts,
We forget the word 'love',
From which each life starts...

God decides good and evil,
We are no one to decide,
Our duty is to spread love,
And be by each other's side...

It is never too late,
To spread the message of love,
By giving, sharing and recieving it,
This world, we can preserve!!!

Lets spread love, lets make peace...!!!!

The bond that was never made....

Life had always been a bit dark,
So why am I shocked when it's taken a gray shade,
Don't know why I am sad that it's broken,
The bond, that was never ever made...

He owes a lot to me,
The debts of my feelings are still unpaid,
Don't know why I still expect him to return,
And make the bond, that was never ever made...

I can't complain, can't ask him why,
Some funny obligations life has laid,
But this question will always ring in my mind,
That why wasn't this bond ever made???

Thinking about him, I've spent countless days,
And countless nights, I've awake stayed,
And am still hoping and will always hope,
That some day this unmade bond will be made...!!!

(This poem conveys a certain emotion... however I do not approve of this attitude... Holding onto broken relationships cannot lead anyone anywhere... but many of us do experience this emotion... and I have experienced it too and put it into words... !!!)

Dear God....

Dear God, forgive me for the wrong things I did,
And the right things that I didn't do,
Forgive me for all those mistakes,
That I have committed all the way through,
Teach me to be righteous,
Teach me to be true,
Teach me to be selfless, thoughtful,
To be as pure as you,
Teach me to be merciful,
Teach me to be kind,
Help me remove all bad thoughts,
And all evil from my mind,
Forgive me for my sins,
Forgive me for whenever I did err,
Let me be satisfied with life always,
And let me be happy forever!!!!

Innocent Murderer....

Blood stains everywhere,
I kill to win,
A ruthless human,
I err, I sin,
This thirst for success,
No one can quench,
But the smell of guilt,
Has an unbearable stench,
Still I continue to be cruel,
For the want of more,
I struggle to proceed,
And break all doors,
I have no compassion left,
For money and power, I strive,
Yes, I am a bloody human,
And I kill to survive!!!

Let me keep the memories....

Let me keep the memories,
Of the day we first talked,
Down the lane of tender love,
As we both first walked...

Let me keep the memories,
Of the day you held my hand,
As we saw the setting sun,
And dug our fingers in the sand...

Let me keep the memories,
Of the day we had our first fight,
We decided to part ways,
And I stayed awake and cried all night...

Let me keep the memories,
Of the time we talked all night,
Of love and how much we mean to each other,
Till the sun shined and we saw daylight...

Let me keep the memories,
Of the day we played our wedding day,
We took our vows and exchanged rings,
Wasn't it so much fun all the way?...

Let me keep the memories,
Of when I had fallen ill,
And you were on my bedside all day long,
And had promised that you always will!...

Let me keep those memories,
For life has forced us to part our ways,
And though we can't be together any more,
These precious memories will always stay!!!

Dedicated to all those who ever felt the magic of being in love for the first time... and the pain of losing their first love!!!

My voyage, back to home....

Watching through the window,
As each milestone passes by,
Waiting with my arms open,
Under the velvety sky,
With nothing but hope in my heart,
And a few friends by my side,
I struggle through the pathways,
Towards my home, I ride,
The smell of my native land,
Memories of home, ignites,
It leads me to my destination,
The torch of victory, it lights,
All the obstacles hardly matter,
Of the pain, I really don't care,
What matters is that I am going home,
And yes, I am finally reaching there!!!

dedicated to all those who ever felt the pain of staying away from their home....

Confused...

It’s 10:00 am and I get a call from my dad’s friend. Her daughter just cleared her 12th grade and gave the entrance exam for medical studies. I being one already trapped in the bait of syringes, needles and dentures, she most readily calls me for advice. What do I tell her? That I am happy here? In a college and profession where you kill to survive, betray your friends, spend your parent’s hard earned money recklessly. Yes it’s true. Not that I am unsuccessful but deep down inside I regret… regret not having given a thought to what I really desire. I am in a profession which I don’t really hate but don’t really love either. Then why am I here?... because it seemed to be the natural choice. But deep down inside my heart wanted me to do something else. But the mighty confused mind took control and things changed. I have accepted the change and learnt to be happy about it. But should I watch others falling into the same trap?

This girl says she’s really passionate about being a doctor. I don’t know how much truth that holds, because some years back even I was very ‘passionate’ about it. She says she’s ready to wait for one more year and repeat the entrance exam…just because her friends are doing the same. What does it indicate? A clear and focused mind or a confused one?

Her mom agrees to her decision. Without giving it any thought. She wants her daughter to be happy even if it means spending more money and seeing her daughter sit at home for a year, and I can’t really blame her. Her daughter is pushing herself into a pit of which she has no idea. I want to speak to her. I want to pour my heart out to her. But I don’t know how she is going to judge my intentions. If she is really passionate about it then to hell with everything else. I am with her. But if she is confused, like I was some years back, then I feel for her. I don’t want her to end up like me. I hope she speaks her mind out to me once. I hope I can help the confused minds of this country to really think from their heart. Know what they really want before attempting something silly and regretting it later. I wish to help... and that’s my only intention!!!

Who am I?

Sitting by my window,
One lonely night,
Silence haunts me,
for there’s not a soul is sight…

“Who am I?”, I wonder,
What am I here to do?,
Of my identity,
I just don’t have a clue…

When God created all of us,
He surely had something planned,
He wanted to sculpt mighty statues,
Out of mere grains of sand…

So why is it that some of us,
Just mingle with the dust,
Some shine like gold and silver,
And some just lie and rust…

And then it finally struck me,
What’s inside his master mind,
He’s hidden talents inside each of us,
Which he wants us to search and find…

It’s just a matter of trust,
And believing in one’s dreams,
With a true heart and the right spirit,
Nothing will impossible seem…

So here I am now,
All set to be “me”,
To work hard, rise and shine,
And make my identity!!!

Truly… life is really about discovering our inner self, and loving each bit of it… each one of us is special n unique in our own way… let each of us discover the gift of life n cherish it forever!!!

FOREVER….
In search of those hands,
Which will hold me tight,
Making each moment light,
Forever….

In search of those eyes,
Which will be filled with love,
Only for me,
Forever…

In search of that touch,
Which will make me tremble,
Ignite the fire of desire,
Forever….

In search of that voice,
That will ring in my ears,
Singing the melodies of life,
Forever…..

In search of that hug,
Which will evaporate all the pain,
Make sorrows look small,
Forever…..

In search of those words,
Which will calm me down,
Support me in difficult times,
Forever….

In search of love,
Pure and divine,
That someone who’ll be mine,
Forever…

DEPRESSION!!!
It creeps into your mind,
And you don’t even come to know,
It melts your heart and makes you cry,
It gives you a mighty blow,
It blocks all joys, makes you miserable,
Makes you feel worthless, and so down,
You cant laugh, nor can you celebrate,
All you can do then is frown,
You want to come out of it,
But however much you try,
Its useless, its painful,
It forces you to crib and cry,
You feel alone in the crowd,
Not being able to relate to anyone,
You feel ugly, you feel dirty,
All seem to be away- joy, happiness and fun,
This is what DEPRESSION does to you,
Leaves you crippled, helpless and desperate,
And you can do nothing but accept defeat,
And console yourself saying that it is fate!!!!