Sad and gay....

I was born, like everybody else,
I looked like any other baby boy,
My mom's warm hands comforting me,
And my dad, pampering me with toys...

I went to school, bright-eyed,each day,
I was a good student, teachers would say,
Loving friends, doting parents, life was perfect,
Till I realised, that I was gay...

Girls like boys, and boys like girls,
Then why do I not feel that way,
If God is impartial, and makes everyone the same,
How then, did I turn out to be gay??...

I do realise that I am different,
But am I so different, really?,
Why is it that me being gay,
Is the only trait that people can see...

I fear stepping out in the crowd,
People look at me in a disdainful way,
I am scared to speak out, the things I want to say,
do I have no right to live, just because I am gay?...

I always thought, loving unconditionally,
Is all that matters at the end of the day,
I never knew love had to wear
Tags like straight, lesbian and gay...

I hide my feelings in a box,
I don't want my friends to go away,
I don't want my parents to disown me,
Please don't tell them, I am gay...

I crave to be like everyone else,
For a normal life, I constantly pray,
For a day, when people wont discriminate,
And I can say with pride, that I am gay!!!

P.S. Homosexuality is not an offence. Everyone should be given an opportunity to lead their life with pride and dignity.

Solitude....

In the crowd,
I forget myself,
I never knew,
Till I met myself,
In solitude...

It is so nice,
To get to know,
Who I am,
Nice and slow,
In solitude...

At peace,
I feel,
All my wounds,
Slowly heal,
In solitude...

My worry creases,
Relax, unfold,
As I narrate to myself,
All the stories untold,
In solitude...

I have not a care,
My lips break into a smile,
And I say to myself,
Hope this stays for a while,
This solitude...

We always want more people around,
To quench our endless greed,
But sometimes, to come to terms with life,
All we really need,
is solitude...!!!!

He is everywhere...

I am the warmth in your tears,
I am the echo that follows your screams,
I am your throbbing heartbeat,
At the end of every bad dream,
I am the scab that covers your wounds,
I am the sweat beads cooling your forehead,
Oh what a pity it is, you always see the obvious,
And never see what isn't obvious, instead,
Whenever you feel pain, you wonder,
When it pains so much, where is He,
Try to look just beyond the pain once,
And you'll certainly find me!!!

P.S. If there's pain, God is around you... :)

Don't come to me tomorrow,

With that empty hand stretched out,

Today I have a lot to give,

A lot more than you thought,

But who has seen tomorrow,

Life's as fickle as it can be,

And what the future holds,

No one in the world can see,

,

So take what I have today, to give,

And learn to appreciate,

And if you don't care enough now,

It might just be a bit too late,

For what's yours today,

Will be someone else's tomorrow,

And If you come asking for it later,

All life shall give you, is sorrow....

Bleeding diamond....

I am the dazzling diamond everyone adores,

I am the object of everyone’s desire,

I am precious and rare,

And so very difficult to acquire...

I am everyone’s envy,

Be it pearls, jewels or beads,

I hold supreme power,

I can cut till you bleed!

Once upon a time I lay,

Deformed, black and crude,

Nobody loved me back then,

And nobody understood...

I vowed to change myself one day,

I wanted to be loved by all,

And in the process of acquiring fame,

I forgot to answer my inner call

I left my beloved behind,

To rise and attain glory,

And here I am, desirable yet lonely,

With no one to complete my story...

And millions, gazillions love me today,

They only see me shine,

But nobody knows that my heart,

Still lies in that coal mine...

The house of cards...

The house of cards stood precariously,

Trembling under the weight of its floors,

She didn't foresee, any calamity,

Simply kept adding more and more...

Each card she placed, whether jack or ace,

Made her swell with pride,

The captivating beauty was all she could see,

She never saw the dangers that it did hide...

And slowly, her faith grew fairly strong,

With passion and zeal, she built on,

Never once did she falter, or stop to think,

That some day it could all be gone...

And so, the house stood, strong and tall,

It spoke of beauty and grace,

But soon a mighty gust of wind blew,

Demolishing it, leaving behind no trace...

Slowly she picked up, card after card,

Her heart stricken with grief and pain,

Each scattered card, a shattered dream,

She never managed to build the house again!!!!

The shadow in the dark...

Creeping up stealthily,

That shadow in the dark,

Muffled footsteps kill the silence,

The contrast, so stark,

The air, still, no more,

Screeching winds start to blow,

My heartbeats rise and sink,

As fears start to grow,

He walks slowly towards me,

Surprisingly unarmed,

And I think to myself

He can do me, no harm,

For he seems so fragile,

I almost instantly pity his state,

Not once do I doubt,

That his appearance could be a bait,

I raise my hand to ward him off,

He retraces, taken aback,

I tighten my fists, point them at him,

I can hear my knuckles crack,

Suddenly he starts moving towards me,

His grimness changes to a malicious grin.

And instantly, a shiver runs down my spine,

His confidence, makes my head spin,

A gust of wind, appears from nowhere,

The Window panes start to creak,

And through his firmly clenched teeth,

He slowly and carefully speaks,

Oh ignorant fool, so full of yourself.

Have you no sense, don't you know,

And didn't it ever occur to you,

That it takes light, to form a shadow....